I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them. I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won’t tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn’t change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn’t really change the fact that you have what you have.
- Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
You know when you have a dream,and it’s so obvious it slaps you in the face? That your subconious is beating you metaphorically and physically. Ya, well that happened. It took exactly how I feel and put it into a situation. I woke up without a definate answer. Which sucks even more.
My dream included two boys: it may represent your feelings about a real-life boy who is important and significant to you. You may have a crush on this boy and your waking thoughts of him has carried over into the dream world.
Me walking on train tracks,and also afraid a friend of mine would get run over by a train: To dream that you are walking alongside the railroad tracks, signifies much happiness from your skillful completion of your tasks./
To see an obstruction on the railroad, denotes the path toward your goals will not be an easy one. It may also indicate that you have lost track of your goals,
a friend of mine selling people in to slave labor…
To dream about slavery, indicates that you re not utilizing your power. You are putting power in another’s hand and allowing them to make choices and decide for you. Alternatively, you are experiencing a lack of autonomy and independence.
hula dancers (after I made my decision in the dream) To dream that you are attending or going to a dance, indicates a celebration and your attempts to achieve happiness. Consider the phrase the “dance of life” which suggests creation, ecstasy, and going with what life has to offer you.
all my best friends were there: To see friends in your dream, signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge these rejected aspects of yourself. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news.
and we were at an amusement park: To see or be in an amusement park in your dream, indicates that you need to set some time for leisure and more enjoyment in your life. Consider how everything in the park is an expression of some aspect of yourself. Alternatively, you may be too easily distracted lately.
All in all I now know what I want… because in my dream I was happy with my choice,and looking at the symbolism I’m sure of how I feel.
I picked. I’m nervous someone is being derailed by actions they can not control. I need to be more independent. I need to not be so stressed! and stop getting distracted. It’s senior fucking year Kara, live a little.
Now, this is a story all about how my life got flipped-turned upside down. And I’d like to take a minute, just sit right there. I’ll tell you how I became the prince of a town called Bel Air.
In west Philadelphia born and raised, on the playground was where I spent most of my days. Chillin’ out maxin’ relaxin’ all cool and all shootin some b-ball outside of the school. When a couple of guys who were up to no good started making trouble in my neighborhood. I got in one little fight and my mom got scared. She said ‘You’re movin’ with your auntie and uncle in Bel Air’!
I begged and pleaded with her day after day, but she packed my suite case and sent me on my way. She gave me a kiss and then she gave me my ticket. I put my walkman on and said, ‘I might as well kick it’. First class, yo this is bad. Drinking orange juice out of a champagne glass. Is this what the people of Bel-Air Living like? Hmmmmm this might be alright.
But wait I hear they’re prissy, wine all that. Is Bel-Air the type of place they send this cool cat? I don’t think so, I’ll see when I get there. I hope they’re prepared for the prince of Bel-Air.
Well, the plane landed and when I came out there was a dude who looked like a cop standing there with my name out. I ain’t trying to get arrested. I just got here, I sprang with the quickness like lightening, disappeared. I whistled for a cab and when it came near, the license plate said fresh and it had dice in the mirror. If anything I can say this cab is rare. But I thought ‘Nawh forget it’ - ‘Yo holmes to Bel Air’. I pulled up to the house about 7 or 8 and I yelled to the cabbie ‘Yo holmes smell ya later’ I looked at my kingdom. I was finally there to sit on my throne as the Prince of Bel Air.
Today I was asked to write down my priorities when choosing a college.
I only wrote; I want to be happy.
All I want is to be happy. I want to know I’m in the right place, I want to feel it. I want the sun to always warm me, and to smile as if I had never smiled before. I want to be happy, that’s all I need, that’s all I want.